Nightstands, Part 1

I’m gonna fill you in on a little secret– in all 5.5 years of our marriage, Jesse and I have NEVER had nightstands. I know, right? The horrors. We’ve used two tiny little tables here and there, but they don’t store anything and they hardly hold anything on top.

This is a problem when you are nursing all night, every night. I always have the following right next to me: a burp cloth, a jug of water, a lamp, my phone/clock/alarm, cream, chapstick, plus any breastpump parts. It gets pretty crowded and messy looking.

But here’s the problem– I don’t LIKE the look of more substantial nightstands! The idea of having a matching dresser/nightstand set makes me feel really old inside. I like the more delicate, eclectic, mis-matched look a ton more. But….most of these kinds of nightstands are not practical, seeing as they are small and don’t have drawers.

So, I’ve been scoping Craigslist for months, waiting for the perfect deal to jump on. My criteria– super cheap, unordinary details, able to be sanded down and painted, and close nearby.

This last week, I found all of these in one deal. These nightstands were $30/each, located in our town. Not only that, but the lady even delivered them for us once she found out we’d just had a baby 🙂

Pretty roughed up and "old" looking, right?

Step 2: Thursday, Jesse spent a few hours sanding them down for me. Seriously, it’s amazing how many drawers doors open when you’re willing to buy furniture in any paint/finish, knowing you can just redo it yourself. Or, in my case, knowing that your loving husband will willingly give up an afternoon to do it for you!

In around 3 hours yesterday early evening (broken up twice for feedings!), I was able to paint 2 coats of no VOC paint on them. My mom and I had gone on an “outing” to Home Depot Wednesday night (I got to pick two “outings” this week! One to Target, one to Home Depot!) and picked out a light green/gray that matches perfectly with the new duvet bedding set I have my eyes on. We’ve had the same maroon/beige color scheme in our room since we got married, and I’m totally ready for a change.

Anyways, here they are, Step 3 completed.

The new, more modern hardware I ordered from Home Depot hasn’t arrived yet (mail order, only). Hardware is to furniture as the eyes are to the face, so putting those on will obviously change the look quite a bit. I can’t wait! I’m also considering adding some dark shading in various places to highlight the details, but I’m not sure how…

Newborn Photo Shoot

Here are just a few. The rest are here, on Facebook.



My Cute Boys

He's gonna be so handsome!

The chocolate is evidenced by the face, but you can't see the tin foil stuck between his teeth. Yes, he ate it ALL.

After I set up G's new chair, he read to Anthony

Since I am holding down the fort solo today, we headed to the bathroom for a change of scenery.

Trying to get a picture of Anthony's face...he's in there, I swear!

Help/Input, please

Okay, friends, I officially need help. Despite the fact that I’ve been very obedient to the midwife, sitting and doing next to nothing, I am just 3 pounds away from my pre-pregnancy weight (please don’t hate me, in all seriousness. This fact is a necessary part of the problem).  If I wasn’t breastfeeding a baby, this would be AWESOME news, but I remember what happened last time with Gregory and I’m really worried. I even just had a bad dream during my nap about it!

This is happening faster than last time, which means that in just a few months I will, once again, be struggling with my milk supply. I love love love how chubby Anthony is looking, and I would hate for him to struggle with weight-gain issues like Gregory did. It breaks my heart and makes me tear up to think about going through that volatile emotional roller coaster again.

My mom and I just had a conversation about “hyper-thyroidism”, and, in her professional nursing opinion, she doesn’t think that’s the problem. I don’t really have any of the other symptoms (insomnia, personality change, jittery behavior). I can ask for them to draw my blood and test for it at my 6 week postpartum appt. (end of May), however, so I’m considering it (although it will be hundreds of $ out-of-pocket).

I’ve googled, “What to Eat While Breastfeeding”, with limited results. Mostly, this turns up articles on what NOT to eat while breastfeeding. My list of those is already long enough, thanks to the two lactation consultants I met with in the hospital.

No, I need to know what the foods with good fat and high calories are. I’m great at pigging out on junk food: icecream, shakes (A+W has this new one now!! YUM!), cookies (ate a pack of Golden Double Stuffed Oreos in 2 days), mac and cheese, and In-N-Out double doubles, but  the healthy stuff we eat is not very calorie or fat dense. The closest thing I have right now are the Odwalla and Naked Juice protein shakes that they sell at the grocery store– 400-700 calories per bottle, along with around 30g of protein! But they are around $2-3/each, so I need to find a cheaper alternative. Making shakes just takes so much clean up!

Also, the list of things I cannot eat, according to the lactation consultant, is kinda lengthy. No chocolate (I was actually eating a Twix bar when she told me this). No citrus or acidic fruits (hard to make/buy shakes that don’t have these). No beans or spicy food. No soda (I miss you, Diet Coke!). It’s not a bunch of hype, because ever since I stopped eating these things, Anthony’s tummy troubles have gotten much better. I had half a soda one night, and he was wriggling around with bad tummy gas for hours!

Also, I don’t feel particularly starving, which means that I need to set a timer and remind myself to eat. This probably has to do with all the bleeding (sigh, yes, still), which makes me nauseous and tired. But I am making sure to eat something iron-rich every day! And my mom is good at making me stuff (eggs, tuna or turkey melts) to eat when she’s home.

So, please, throw them at me— every good meal or snack recipe you’ve got (within the dietary restrictions, preferably!)! Any suggestions for middle-of-the-night-nursing snacks? Do I need to resort to eating liver/onions (the only helpful thing I found on the internet)? I think I’m going to go to the grocery store in the next day or two and just wander the aisles, buying anything that looks appetizing so that I have plenty of food on hand at all hours of the day.

Basically, I refuse to believe that this is “just how my body works”. I want to fight it, and I want to have a healthy milk supply for my baby. I just have no idea how to beat this!

San Luis Obispo

A friend of mine on Facebook just posted an aerial view of when she paraglided over our neck of the woods.


You gotta admit. San Luis Obispo is downright gorgeous.

Spring Formal

Jesse and I are the Student Council advisors for this semester, and Spring Formal is fast approaching. One of the seniors made a promo video that they played during chapel today.

For those of you that know Jesse, you can see his influence/sense of humor all over this 🙂 Also, in order to make sense of and see the crude humor (my opinion) of the final tagline, you should know that the theme is “Titanic”.

Successful Squash!

I can’t say the same for my peppers and tomatoes, but my squash seedlings are really taking off! Last week, I transplanted them all from their cups to bigger pots. They will stay here until I have a garden bed in our new place (wherever that may be).



You have to really know me to know what an accomplishment this is. I grew stuff. From SEEDS. And they are the opposite of dead! It’s really amazing. The miracle of life, I tell you.

On that note, I have the cutest babies ever.

Totally milk drunk

He's been eating everything by himself lately

From 1 to 2

It’s been 2 weeks since Anthony got here. That seems like such a long time, and yet it really feels like these last 2 weeks have passed in such a blur– I have not yet reached that place where it feels like Anthony has “been with us forever”.

So far, the transition’s been something like this:

Gregory is definitely processing some strong emotions. I figured that this would be the case, as we’ve noted time and time again that he seems to “feel” things deeply, even if it’s just a quiet reprimand. He feels conflicted about having a new brother– on the one hand, he adores having “Wee” around to hug and “pick up”, but on the other hand, he knows that this little person is the reason his schedule is all turned around. Instead of Mommy getting up to feed him his morning milk, it’s Grandma, which is nice but still different. Instead of Mommy putting him down for his nap, Mommy and Wee are usually taking their own nap. Instead of Daddy playing energetically at all hours of the day like he did during Easter Break, he goes to work! When he gets home, he’s tired and falling asleep mid-baseball game on the couch! Gregory is very in tune with his surroundings, and knows that something big is amiss.

Funny enough, he is kind, sweet and super cute to everyone…except for Jesse and I. He’s been happy as a clam with my mom, and the moment I wake up and interact with him, he has meltdown after meltdown. My mom says that it is night and day behavior, as though he is testing me to see if I still love him. He simultaneously wants hugs while pushing me away (you’d think this was figurative, but it’s oddly very literal, which isn’t very practical for anyone). Jesse and I have seen some of the worst temper tantrums from G this past week– meltdowns over us giving him exactly what he wants!

Scene: Dinner Time

Gregory: “Juice!”

Me: “Okay, let me get you some juice!” <I put G down and get up>

Gregory: “NOOOOO!!!! WAAAAAAHHHH!!!!!” <dissolves into shrieking>

Me: ??????

The worst is when I go to nurse Anthony (which, since he’s a newborn, is sometimes every hour). G becomes extremely clingy and tries to climb all over me. Sometimes, he’s curious and points to say, “Num-nums?”, but most of the time this is when he acts out towards me, hitting or whining. Convenient, since this is when I have no ability to discipline him!

That’s the Gregory scoop. As far as raising Anthony goes, thus far? He’s an easy baby, for right now, at least. I know that many babies “turn a corner” after those first 3 weeks, so I’m not counting any chickens. But it’s safe to say that if I wasn’t dealing with my own postpartum recovery issues, I would think that this newborn thing wasn’t so bad. Ever since that very first time in the hospital, he’s nursed like a pro, without any problem latching whatsoever (he’s semi-tongue-tied, so I was afraid the pediatrician and the la leche league would advise “cutting”, but so far, so good). He’s gaining tons of weight, almost growing out of his NB sleepers, so I know he’s definitely getting enough. The soreness isn’t even close to what it was with Gregory, which is also how I know that we’re doing something right. I’ve been using Medela’s Hydrogel pads, and they’ve been absolutely wonderful. I will probably buy them for every new mom I encounter from now on!

When Anthony cries and he’s not hungry or wet, he falls right back asleep in anyone’s arms. Once I cut out soda and chocolate, his tummy has settled and he’s been sleeping a few 2-3 hour stretches at night– not GREAT sleep for me, but for a newborn, that’s pretty good. He loves being swaddled and will sit in his bouncy chair for quite a while, allowing me to take a shower, play with Gregory, etc. (eventually, I’ll be “wearing” him most of the time, but I’m still trying to take it easy and recover).

Anthony’s so low maintenance, in fact, that we sometimes forget to change his diaper, long after we “hear” him dirty it. This has resulted in some nasty diaper rash, which I feel bad about since I know it’s our fault. He just doesn’t complain, and, especially at 4am, I just nurse him and set him back in his bassinet, all without leaving my comfy covers. Gregory was the complete opposite– he would SCREAM SCREAM SCREAM the moment he dirtied a diaper, even slightly. We were changing 10-12 diapers a day with G. Anthony goes through 8, mayyyybe. We are about to switch back over to cloth, since we already have to use a cloth insert in his disposables to keep him from peeing out the top (why do my boys struggle so much with this?).

Anthony does spit up once or twice a day, and it’s pretty projectile-like. I’m always very stunned and annoyed when it happens because G never spat up. We’re finally making use of all those burp rags we’ve had sitting unused for 2 years 🙂

Long in short…life with two is hard, but it’s made possible by all of my help (my mom, mother in law, and niece Rachel). Since I still can’t lift G, probably for another week, they’ve done a good job of making sure I’m never alone when he needs to get into his crib or out of the car.

The real test will be when we move out and I have both kids all day by myself….ah! Then again, that will most likely occur right when Jesse and I begin our 3 months of Summer Break! Most likely, Anthony will be 5 months old before I’m left by myself with the two of them.

Anyways….one day at a time?

10 days

Although my body still seems to hate me from the uterus-healing side of things, my whale belly (my name for it, not Jesse’s, because he does, in fact, enjoy living) has been shrinking! Here’s to looking at the bright side of things, right?

Newborn Photo Shoot Teasers!

Today was Anthony’s newborn photo shoot (it was supposed to be Wednesday, but we decided to go have fun in the ER instead).

Melissa was so incredibly patient with us. Anthony decided he had to eat a few times during things, and G decided to throw a few temper tantrums over not being the center of attention.

Despite a few “time outs” and a lot of tears, we still got a lot of neat photos 🙂 Here are the two she just sent me (I love how she always sends me a couple the same day as the shoot! I’m not the most patient person when it comes to pictures, especially pictures of my adorable babes, so I really appreciate this!).

Our tall, dark and handsome baby!